Finally, getting back on track. Almost a year i do not update any entry. Time flew so fast and my degree ended. There are a lot to be share and i am not sure where to start. InsyaAllah will graduate this 13th October.
Syukur alhamdulillah pada ALLAH sebab memberikan kekuatan mental dan fizikal dalam menempuh tahun akhir di university in which full of pain, tears, and sweat. It was kinda challenging for me as i am neither a smart nor hardworking type of students. So bila smart and hardworking type of student wass needed rasa macam bawa lori 500tan kat bahu. Kadang-kadang give up nangis-nangis lepastu sikit-sikit homesick demam-demam call mak. Bila tengok harga tiket bukan lagi tambah lega tapi tambah nangis sebab mahal then tak jadi balik and untuk release tension asyik pergi makan kedai sepanjang hari sampai rasa badan berat and mengah nak buat kerja. Life was not easy when we were apart from family and only have friends to lean on. Ni bukan setakat apart dah. FAR AWAY tahu.
But after all, dengan doa ibu yang solehah, dan dengan izin ALLAH yang Maha Besar, maka setiap yang berusaha itu dijanjikan hadiah setimpal dengan apa yang diusahakan. Alhamdulillah i bit my target. It was not easy. I spent thousands RM because some of the lab apparatus didnt function well , i slept less than 3 hours per day, pimples were everywhere on my face, i forgot to wish most of the birthday of great best friend, i rarely call my mother, i fight with some friends because everyone was in tension zone, conflict with housemate, lost some precious thing-the olympus xz-1 and a macbook adapter, missing recent news of the good old friend, lost contact, and etc etc semua sebab final year project and subject killer especially enviromental law.
I was sad because i could not fulfill some wishes dan hari-hari doa supaya masa cepat berlalu cause i cant bear it on that time. So bila dapat capai target rasa BERJAYA gila. Paham tak rasa berjaya gila gila. Rasa happy and rasa tak salah la nak post kat fb. Excited. Plus fb tu umum so suka hati la nak post apa asalkan maruah dan agama masih dijaga. Tapi ada pula kata kita nak show off sampai nak satu fakulti tahu. Ikut atas masing-masing la. Jalan yang setiap manusia lalu tak sama so kalau dia da lepas satu tahap paling kritikal dalam hidup dia and dia nak happy suka hati lah. I just felt so happy and want my lovely one to know that after all i survived, so they do not have to be worry much. Bukan tujuan nak show off atas kejayaan. Eksited nak kongsi sama paham tak. Paham tak.
After 3 years, even it was not a first degree class and i was very frustrated but trust me wahai mak ayah, i had given my very best. I have changed so much and i have learned many things that money cant even buy especially in term of friendship and the important of ilmu dunia akhirat. I woke up after a frustrated failure, after tersungkur dengan teruk sekali. Bukan mudah nak bangkit balik. Here, i want to thanks to people that had contributed in my final sem especially the FYP and thank ALLAH for giving an awesome supervisor with awesome wife who gave encouragement not only in the FYP, but by attending some events organized by me. Terharu sangat seriously. Thanks to tira, kak nad, yana, thini, lia, and oppa for all the advice and support.
Inilah hasilnya! Lepas jilid and da boleh hanta kat pejabat rasa macam perasaan ibu-ibu yang baru dapat baby. GEMBIRA!
It contain tears, pain, mucus, and sweat in it.
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My name on it. ;') My very first publication. My first baby.
Selamat Berpuasa semua. Semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam dan esok lebih baik dari hari ini.
